I possess a natural empathy and a desire to help people; whether that is to help ease the pain of chronic tension, to soothe the muscles following over-exertion or simply to relax and take away anxiety. I treat people holistically and as individuals

Amy Phillips - 07800 636266

Dekker Road, Dulwich Village. London. SE21 7DJ


Tuesday, December 11, 2012 Wellbeing

My Own Healing Journey

"The journey between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place."
Barbara Deangelis

I first remember feeling an overwhelming sadness (which I now know was depression) at the age of 12. I didn't know why or even what 'it' was, and I certainly didn't feel able to talk about it with anyone, but I do remember curling up on my bed and crying and wishing the world would swallow me up so that I wouldn't have to face up to it anymore.
At aged 16, I was seriously overweight, shy and insecure and using drugs and alcohol to numb my pain, boost my confidence and 'fit in' with people At 20, there was a big turnaround in my life as I decided it was time to lose weight and by obsessive dieting and exercising, I very rapidly dropped from 14 stone to 10 stone and by aged 23, I weighed just 7.5 stone and looked like a walking skeleton. Friends seemed almost afraid of spending time with me, as they were unable to understand my self-neglect and my almost complete withdrawal from them and from the world. I was still depressed, and an insomniac too, often getting only 3 or 4 hours sleep a night and I can only describe myself as being a ghost of a human being.

Now, aged 34, I no longer get depressed (bad moods don't overwhelm me, I just accept them as a sometimes necessary passing phase), I am a healthy 9 stone and sleep a good 8 hours every night. I consider myself to be at the end of my healing journey, and what a journey it's been! From Acupuncture to Yoga and pretty much everything in between, I have tried almost everything in the pursuit of finding inner peace and happiness. Many different therapies have had a profound effect on me and piece-by-piece they have restored me to being what I consider to be a healthy and balanced individual with self-confidence and a real love of life.
It hasn't always been an easy journey, especially for someone who had such deep insecurities, finding the love for myself and the desire to realise my full potential, which was necessary to even begin the healing process was perhaps the hardest step- and without the love and support of my close friends and family, I may well have wasted away to nothing! So thank-you all, and thanks also to each and every therapist who has influenced my life and brought me to where I am now.

Where I am now, is centred and grounded and very privileged to be able to now take the role of therapist and do my own little bit to help others on their own journey. I am a Massage Therapist and Reiki Healer and this blog is going to explore the world of healing from the perspective of someone who used to be a lost soul but is now a fully-fledged member of the healing community.
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